Success

Success is waking up
In the morning, whoever you are,
wherever you are,
However old or young,
and bounding out of bed because
there's something out there that
you love to do, that you believe in,
that your good at-
something that's bigger than you are,
and you can hardly wait to
get at it again today.

- Whit Hobbs

Live your life

Tomorrow is today
Live your life as you never begun,
Tomorrow is gone,
You have a fresh start,
Every day is a new day.
You have the power to make the most of it.
Tomorrow may never come,
but live for today
clear your head,
relax for the moment,
Live,
Live. now
You have one chance,
Use it confidently
make the most of it.
you never know what may come.
You only have one chance
use it wisely
Give it a chance
fight your battles
Only the the ones that are worth fighting for.
Your life, your dreams
conquer the bad
grow from the past,
Live for today
Grow as you never have before
Happiness grows form the heart,
Be cautious
Don't give your heart fully, at least not at first.
You have one chance
What are you going to do with it
LIVE,
LIVE.
Live your life
today is gone,
tomorrow is here
GROW
LIVE
Learn
Give.

One Step Further

Do more than exist: Live

Do more than touch: Feel

Do more than look: Observe

Do more than read: Absorb

Do more than hear: Listen

Do more than listen: Understand

Do more than think: Reflect

Do more than just talk: Say Something

- Author Unknown

The Release

Drop the bottle
Leave the pain behind,
Drink the poison
That got you there in the first place,
Win the game,
Play the game,
Drink the bottle,
It will all go away,
The release,
gain the respect
you deserve
gain the respect you lost,
Leave it all behind,
Leave it all behind
The release
The closure,
It's all in front of your face,
Wake to the Wake morning call
Wake like you never have before.
The release
All so different, yet so the same.
Tee release take it or leave it
it's all your choice.
Take the chance
Take the release

Every Body's Got Their Something

Love
Compassion
Hate
Rage
Envy
Jealousy
Cheater
Friend
Enemy
Lover
Regret
Forgiveness
Drama
Truth
Willpower

Every body's got their something

Ribbons

The ribbons wrap my body,
so tight,
The mask I wear
It hides my fate.
I look to sky and wonder,
should I let the ribbons run free?
Should I release the mask that holds my destiny?
Red, blue, gold and white
They flow so freely
like a bird with might.
The mask I wear is tight on my face,
It covers my self and my fate.
Dare to let loose, dare to try,
The feelings of loss is to much to bear.
For now I let the ribbons slowly run free,
But they stay tight on me,
The mask will someday come off,
I will be as I was meant to be.

Dream a Little Dream of Me

The dreamer,
The believer,
The ultimate reliever,

Dream a little dream of me.

The life,
The savior,
Dream the impossible,
Live for the moment,
Unleash the anger

Dream a little dream for me

Live for the moment
Learn from the past,
Dream for the future
Ask for the impossible
Live for the goal,

Dream a little dream of me

Conspirator

The pill popper,
The beer drinker,
The wine cracker,
the vodka slammer,

The common denominator
The binge eliminator

The high, the drunk
enough is enough
is it ever enough?

The crying child,
The adult conspirator
living a lie,
Believing the truth.

The pill you pop makes it all go away,
The beer you slam, passes you out
The wine you crack, it's all in your head.
The vodka goes down easy, too easy

The original addict
The act is surreal
wasting away
far away.

To far gone to come back

Let the Days Go by

It should have been you
You let the days go by
You let my tears run dry
It must be a dream,
It must be real
I can feel the pain
You are here
You are gone
You let the days go by
I could have changed
But, could I have changed for you?
I am never alone
I am alone all the time
I live by the day
You live by the dream
Is this reality
Is it a dream?
Do you lie
I tell the truth
You had a beautiful tastes
You have a wicked way
You let the days go by
I felt the truth
I felt the reality
In you.
I needed you more
You needed me
I can see you for what you are
The days are far and few between
It is not my time to wonder why.

The Way it is

The mountains touch the sky,
The rain falls upon her face,
Seeing but never believing
Dyeing but never living
A shell that is all she is
Living a life that was not meant to be
Walking a line that stretches to the limit
How much longer can she go on
How much longer can she face the pain

She watches the stars, the cloud cover
The majestic of the mountain top
She watches the mountain reach to the sky,
She lets the raindrops fall on her face
To wash away the tears.

To live in silence
To live alone
For her the mountain will never touch the sky
For her time will come to die.

I Remember

I remember the promises you made
The priority you made me
I remember The gentle kisses
The love that we once shared
I remember all the times we spent together
The good and the bad
I remember the calls I received from you
promising to never go away.
Then you told me you can't wait
and you told me the chemistry wasn't there
It wasn't there for me either that one faithful night
It doesn't make it hurt it any less.
You pushed me to be the best I could be
You were my rock, my dependably
Then you left, you were gone.
Well guess what?
FUCK YOU!
Fuck you for the promises you made,
Fuck you for the love that you gave
The promises you can't keep.
Now all I have is the memories
I try to think of the bad
so much easier than the good
It makes me miss you less
and it makes the pain go away.
The pills they only help so much
The memory of you is enough to turn my heart upside down.
Then only words I have for you is the words o FUCK YOU!
You moved away, you said you cared
Not so long ago you missed my touch,
Now the choice is yours and one day I hope you live to reget it.
I was willing to wait, I was willing to be there,
That is where we didn't see eye to eye
I am moving on, I am going to pick myself up,
and one day, just one day I will be me
I will let the pain subside, I will let it go free
Somehow it gets easier everyday.
The call will come when I am ready tp accept the pain I feel deep in my heart.
Just remember, because I remember
The day of yesterday are gone.
There is no tomorrow
there is no next time,
For right now all I can say is FUCK YOU!
No apologies, no excuses,no regrets,
You shaped me to be the person I am today.
For that I will always be grateful,
But the advantage you took of me
is to much to bear,
a project that is all I was,
never did you see as one that was forever.
Fuck you for your lies,
Fuck you for your privileged life,
and Fuck you for not being there
Anymore.

It doesn't matter anymore

The pain, the gain
The hurt the game,
All in one, it's all the same.
You give your life to someone
They take it away.
Nothing seems better than the thought of pain.
They say good by, you move on,
You live your life as if nothing is wrong.
your heart aches, one day it will ache no more.
You thought you were over it,
You thought you thought wrong.
You will move on, you will gain the respect
You deserve the respect,
nothing will hold you back.
The moon shines bright, the stars, shine in your face.
please give me the strength I need tonight.
love tomorrow, live today, it doesen't take the pain away.
Sleep my daring, let it all go,
Let the pain subside today.

Wish Upon A Falling Star

Star light, star bright, I don't see a star tonight
The moon is shining the clouds they cover
The stars that shine so bright
Wish upon a falling star
Wish so hard, you might just win.
Star light, star bright, wish upon this wish I wish tonight
There will be no wishes, there will be no promises,
the stars are not out tonight.

The Rain

I listen as it drops on my window so soothing, so calm.
I feel the intensity of the drops that fall,
I feel he warmth of the soothing calmness,
My window open, my blankets on
The comfort it it beings to my heart,
The fall has come, the fall is here
My memories of the past,
A distant memory of what once was.
There is no turning back, because thats what it is a memory.
The fog that rolls in, and I think of the times that once were.
Oh the rain, it comforts me to know end.
The pain that I feel the pain that endures my heart
The rain
The rain.
Falling out of the sky.
The coldness that evades my heart, the once upon on a time.
The rain,
The rain.
We feel the drops ever so softly upon our faces and look to heavens of god
The beauty, mixed with an emotion so deep.
The life we are to live
The life we are living.
The soothing of the rain
So deep so reflective
The rain,
The rain.

Who Knew

Sometimes you have a song that touches you and you can't get it out of your head, It says all there is to say about what you are going through right now. I just had someone that I thought I was in love with move away, and we promised we would keep in touch, talk and see each other as much as we could. But that time turned into days, then into weeks and now into months. It has taken me a while to get to a point to where I could be ok with it, and I know that if I see him the feelings will all come flooding back to me and it will take me that much longer to get over him. So for my own sanity I will never see him again... Completely my choice, not his. You never know what you truly had until it's gone. So I am posting this song by Pink, Who Knew because it totally says my feelings right now.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Just remember to count your blessings because once it's gone it's gone. People move on and eventually I'll get over it. It's just easier to cut the cord......

XOXO

One Day

One day it will all come together,
One day I will live as one, as whole
As tomorrow comes and tomorrow brings in promises
As I live today I will find my moment, my moment in time
One day, song will come to me, the music will play
Someday when the world is cold you be be thinking of me,
Someday when I look upon a star, I will see you, standing above me
One day, someday life will be as it should, in another world, in another day
You'll be thinking of me and the world will be as it should.

xoxo

Simply

Simply, maybe things are impossible, ever so untouchable,
Simply, maybe one day you will hear me sing that impossible song.
One day the world will look upon you and say you'll meet someone better.
Simply,
Maybe,
I stumbled upon you most accidentally
and fell a million miles
down into that impossible road.
Simply
Maybe
You'll look around that corner and see something better
And then you'll think whatever.
Maybe
then you'll forget that stupid song.
that you once sang.......
Simply,
Maybe
it will be a distant memory and you'll get on....
you're friends will say whatever, you can do so much better
and you'll get on.
Simply
Maybe

Everybody’s Free to Feel Good

Brothers and sisters together we make it last
Someday our wishes will come true
I know you’re afraid
Well I am too
Together we’ll make it through

Because everybody’s free to feel good
Everybody’s free to feel good

Together we’ll love till the end of time
Together we’ll make it through
Life takes its turns
Tomorrow is a new day
Live for the moment
Live in time.

Because everybody’s free to feel good
Everybody’s free to feel good

Rest your heart against mine
Remember I will love you until the end of time
Together we will make it through
Nothing can take you away from me.

Together we will watch the sunrise
Together we’ll make it through
You’ll never be far away from me
So far is everyone else.
It’s just you and me.

Because everybody’s free to feel good
Everybody’s free to feel good

Tomorrow is today,
Forever we’ll make it last
Baby it’s just you and me
Just you and me

We are free to feel good,

Drop the Beat

The music drops the beats
Your hand touches my body
I am falling for you

My head spins, the beats keeps dropping
The music keeps playing
My feet keep moving
I am falling for you.

Like a drug, you take my mind away
I can feel you
I can feel the music dropping the beat.

You say you need me,
You say you want me
Feel the music
Feel my body
Baby I am falling for you.

Drop the beat,
Feel my soul
Touch me baby
I am all yours

I Keep Breathing

The sensation of you slides slowly down my body,
The feel of your touch sends tingles down my frame,
Slowly your tongue touches my skin
Crying out for you
Waiting
To feel you

I keep breathing
I keep breathing.

Your touch like a fine wine,
Your kiss so deep so receptive
The caress of your hand against my heart.
So fast it beats, anticipating you.
Inside of me.

I keep breathing
I keep breathing

Waiting just one more minute,
Waiting to feel you.
Keep breathing,
Keep feeling
You.

I keep breathing, I keep breathing
Feeling your breath near my ear,
So deep, so sweet.

You bring me everything
Nothing short of pure ecstasy.

I keep breathing for you.

To You,

I love you, I always will,
You make me want to be a better person,
You have made me a better person.
Without you in my life,
It would have not been complete.
You taught me to see the world in a light
I never would have dreamed of before.

They said we were all wrong,
What did they ever know about you and me?
They said we never stood a chance,
It is over now, but there is nothing I regret about you.

There is nothing I would take back between you and me.
You taught me so much in the time we shared,
I know we will both move on,
I know we will find someone else,
But the thought of you
The impact you have had on my life will never be forgotten.

There were times when I doubted the feelings I felt inside,
Now if I had one more day, just one
I would not waste it on not telling you how much you mean to me
And always have and always will.

You have been the core of my soul,
My rock, when I was weak,
My best friend, when no one else was.

You shaped me into a person I am proud to be.
You did this for me.

There will never be enough ways to thank you
For all you have done,
For being you.

The Memory

The wind blows gently in her hair,
She can feel the tears dripping down her face,
Her eyes close; she lets the wind caress her face,
She lets the wind wipe away her tears.

He is never coming back; He has left forever,
No more sweet kisses, no more long hugs,
Just the memory of yesterday,
The memory of precious sweet nothings
The memory of time-shared so sweetly between the two.

There is only the memory of you and me.
The tears fall gently down her face,
The wind blows her hair,
She stares out at the sea
She cries, for there is nothing left to do,
For there was no goodbye.

Life is Never What it seems

Lost love new changes,
The beating of my heart,
So fast, so scared,
Life is never what it seems,
Day by day I walk the shadows of my past,
Day by day I wonder into a state of oblivion.

Life is never what it seems.

There are some that go along their way,
Always smiling, always caring,
What is wrong that I see is the dark side of my reality?

Life is never what it seems.

My thoughts carry so deep,
Of a time that once was,
My thoughts live in my memory
Haunting a life, I could have had.
My heart beats fast, my mind races
I can barley feel what is deep inside,
For is there anything left?

Life is never what it seems.

Walking alone, feeling despair,
Seeing but not really feeling,
The motions around me seem to drift on and on
The life is surreal, is it really there?

Life is never what it seems.

So I Say

Looking back on all the time
Looking back at me and you,
and all that we have gone through.
You want something I do not have the heart to give
You want something that compromises myself.

I messed up and broke you down,
You hurt me too; you left when I needed you the most
So I say my emotions are out for grabs,
So you say we need some time.

What about the times you hurt me?
What about the times I forgave you?
I lose control one night and suddenly you cannot handle it?

I never cheated on you; I never broke your heart,
Your heart is made of stone,
I commend the person who can finally get through to you.

So I say this is not going to work,
You tell me I cannot let go of pasts,
Yet you hold me to one night of pure emotional breakdown.

You tell me I am not the person I once was,
You tell me I don’t appreciate you or the things you do.

Is that what’s it’s all about?
Matching dollar for dollar
when you know I don’t have the money?

When you say you care,
Do you really mean it or is it just something to say.
Once you cared, once you loved me.

It got to hard, the emotions ran dry,
The tears no longer watered my eyes.

So I say FUCK YOU!
For all that you do,
For the grudges you hold,
The way you make me feel
Worthless.

FUCK YOU
Our foundation broke long ago,
The cracks breaking into pieces.

So I say, I am done.
No more tears,
No more pain,
No more trying for you.

So I say.

© 2008 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

So You Say

Can people who have dated really be just friends and then add in the factor of "friends with benefits?" Is it possible to set your romantic feelings aside or say lets see how things go for a while, I am not ready for anything in the short term, meaning six to nine months. Can you really do that?

So you say we are just friends, just friends and that I don’t want to start over with anyone else, I just want to be with you but I cannot date you right now. What the hell does that mean? Yes, it is true there can/was an altering emotional event that was compared to cheating or being hit (which by the way was neither), yes true one person had a complete emotional breakdown and the other decided they could not take it anymore. So where do you draw the line?

How can feelings just be gone, yes I understand the scarred part and even the part of you that does not want to deal with it anymore. However, how can you go to being just friends and then friends with benefits? If you truly do not have feelings for this person anymore, why would you want to continue the intimacy? Intimacy is a large part of a relationship and if it has been there for quite some time, you cannot go back to being just friends.

One person in the relationship is scared and doesn’t want to let go, I do not think either one of them wants to let go, so where is the line actually drawn? Can you draw a line here? There is no clear answer for this, is there?

So you say when things get rough, it’s time to throw in the towel and move on, yet you do not, you choose of your own being to stay and to not see other people. You choose to stay and be there, so you say.

Life changes people, it comes and it goes, one person touches you so deeply that it is hard to let go, you cannot forget the touch, the smell, the whole being of that person. The saddest part is that person is your best friend, and then it all changes. It changes to a point that your heart hurts, and your head screams, WHAT AM I DOING? You know exactly what you are doing and most likely will know the outcome, or maybe not.

Trying to be OK with a new situation is very hard, yet you know that you have a lot to make up for; this is your fault you know. If only, you can never say, if only. It happened, and it happened for a reason. We all know this to be true, EVERYTHING happens for a reason. No one knows what is going to happen 2 hours, 10days, or 6 months from now. However, what you do and what you say can shape what will happen in the future. If it is your actions that put you there, you need to take responsibility.

So you say this is how it’s going to be for a while, so you say this is all you can deal with, so you say I don’t want to date anyone else, so you say can you deal with this?

So what do I say?

Human

Come on baby dry your eyes,

Hurting you is the last thing I wanted.

You left, I needed to fill the void in my heart.

I would never to try to hurt you,

I just want to be with you.



I’m only human, born to make mistakes.



I long to hold you at night,

Hear your voice in my ear.

Kiss me in the morning

Kiss me goodnight.



Hurting you has hurt me,

Please baby dry your eyes.

Come back to me.



I’m only human, born to make mistakes.



Lying awake at night thinking about you

You used to lye beside me,

I would turn around and there you were

Holding you close,

Never will I let go again.



I’m only human, born to make mistakes

Some mistakes can’t be fixed.

I’m sorry baby.



© 2008 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

Gone is the Angel

You came into my life,

I was watching you from afar

My angel, my shining star

You didn’t know it yet,

But you would become the light of my life

The whole existence of my being.



My life revolved around nothingness

It became unclear,

Until I met you.

Suddenly life was worth living

It had a purpose.



Then one day you were gone,

My life shattered,

My angel left my side.



The pain became to hard to handle

I found you in the bathtub

Blood everywhere,

A bottle of pills beside you on the ledge.



A note,



I love you my dear,

I always have,

I may not be here in body

I will live inside your heart.

Forever.

You will manage; you are stronger than me,

The voices became too much, the pain to hard to bear.

My love, my angel,

Do not forget

Love,



I cried for days,

Knowing my shining star was gone,

Am I stronger than her, than my angel?

Forget never

Love again

Never.

© 2008 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

Last breath

One more bottle, one more pill,

One more breath,

One last look.



The world is to rigid,

The past to deep,

Far too much to see

Too many tears fall.



One last breath

Her eyes close,

The pain is gone

The bottle empty.



She does not call,

This time it is the end.

There is no tomorrow

This is the end.

© 2008 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

Al Mio Amore (To My Love)

The sun washes upon your face
Ever so gracefully, your hand reaches my heart

Amerò sempre
(I will always love)
Il vostro amore è per sempre miniera
(your love is forever mine)

When I gaze at you,
I see the stars in your eyes,
I would walk a million miles to feel your gentle touch.

Il Mio Amore
(My love)
Il Mio Amore
(My Love)

When the flowers gaze at you,
Their beauty falls upon your soul,
Nothing compares to Il Mio Amore

The language of love is spoken from your lips
So Sweet, So Tender.
Falling upon my heart.

Il Mio Amore
(My love)
Il Mio Amore
(My Love)

You wash away the pain,
Gentle as you are

il vostro cuore tocca mine
(your heart touches mine)

You take my breath away.

Il Mio Amore
(My love)

Ms. Madam

She wears her pearls around her neck,

The diamonds on her fingers,



Ms. Madam.



Everyday a routine,

Never changing,



Putting on her evening gown

Making up her face.



The image in the mirror is not what it once was

Elle est mme. immobile Madame.



Her fingers twisted with arthritis,

The lines across her face.



The beauty fading through the mirror,

Not fading in Ms. Madam's eyes



Pour l'amour de Ms. Madam

la volonté ne se fanent jamais



She lives her life in a dream

Wearing her pearls and her diamonds

Dressing in her gown,

Waiting for her prince

Making up her face,

Sitting on her couch

sipping son champagne



Semblables de Madame de mme. vivront dessus

Ms. Madam

Rêve rêveur de l'OH

Washed Away

She walks, the waves wash along her feet

Up to her ankles

The water so cold

It will be over soon

Deeper she walks,letting the ocean wash over her feet

Into the waves

Up to her torso

Up the her neck,

She lays on her back, the coldness

Washes over her broken body

She closes her eyes, the colness penetrates

Thinking back to her childhood,

When everything was so easy,

So pure, so innocent

Long gone are the days of old,

Her heart is filled with pain,

The waves crash over her broken body,

The numbness sets in, the cold no longer fills her veins,

Her body is engaged in the waves of time

Deeper she floats; the pain washes away the grief.

The water washes over her,

The moon shines above.

Her eyes close one last time,

No longer she feels the pain,

No longer the suffering

Washed away by the waves covering her body.

They find her the next day,

Bloated and soulless

Eyes wide open,

Vacant and cold.

Washed ashore by the hands of death,

No motive, no letter,

Just a goodbye of a woman who once was.

So beautiful, no one understands

The mystery of her death will remain her secret.

and her s alone

Too late to say goodbye,

Always to remember

Of the girl who once was.

Tomorrow will never come for her,

Tomorrow is too late,

Yesterday is gone,

No goodbyes

No closure

She is gone.

Forever.

Broken Will

When your will is broken and your heart is gone,
You seek to find the strength inside
Feel my body run cold
There is nothing between the eyes you once held.

You don’t know what it takes to be me,
You don’t know the inside of me.

Your body so close, ripped away
Now it has gone,
Walk beside me, walk away
Leave me be, let me stay.

You don’t know what it takes to be me,
You don’t know the inside of me.

So torn between reality and oblivion
Walking slowing to my tune
Seeing nothing, see you
Falling to the light
Then becomes dark.

Will you ever see the inside of me?
Will you ever know what it takes to be me?

Set me free, let me heal
Give me the will
To move forward to see
What it takes to be me.

Now I lay me Down to Sleep

Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the lord my soul to keep if I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to keep

The pain flows deeply, running down my ankle,

Mental state oblivion

I don’t care I can’t sleep

The meds kick in, the pain so deep

The words cannot explain.

I cannot go back to yesterday,


Yesterday is a faint memory

My life is fragile the pain runs deep,

The emotional state has changed.

One flick of a razor, my feelings speak no longer.

Do I speak out, not today, maybe not ever?

The pain a reminder of what is, what was?

Reminding me every day, to get through the day

Day by day state of emotional distress.

Comforting of days to come.

State of psychosis, will they know?

I live, I deal, I must go on,

Today tomorrow, maybe sooner than later.

Around and around my thought they go

I close my eyes; I take a deep breath, sleep it comes and goes.

Rest my friend you will see tomorrow.

Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the lord my soul to keep if I die before I wake I

pray the lord my soul to keep

Thought for the day

Feel the fragrant breezes of twilight drink deeply of your anxiesties and lift you into sleep - Daisy Seal