Wednesday, December 12, 2007

DId You Know?

Last night in my business class, we watched this video and it had such a profound effect on me, I feel like I have to share. PLEASE WATCH THE ENTIRE VIDEO! You will be surprised by the world in which we are evolving. It is scary, it is interesting, but most of all it is reality. Change is inevitable, it will happen, and the question is how we will as America progress and adapt to this change. Think back a long time ago, cars were a mystery to people, a new thing, but now we look at them as normal in our society, something we almost can't live without. There are many changes and ideas that were unthinkable yers ago. Please watch, I think you will be as amazed I was.





Monday, December 10, 2007

Talking Over Me and You

If you knew my story, if you knew all about me,

If I told you things, you did not see,

Would go home with me?

If you knew all about it would it change a thing?





I have been there before, always seeing more. Yes, I would go home with you. I see your face, the face that’s looking right back at me,

Will you take a chance on me?



We don’t care what they say and we don’t care what they think

Does it really matter? The only thing that matters is talking over me and you.




The lights are getting dim; I see your face,

Looking right back at me, everyone is leaving

All that is left is me and you.




I can see the moonlight, drink your beer, stick around with me and we can finish this anywhere, the night is young, and so are we.



We don’t care what they say and we don’t care what they think

Does it really matter? The only thing that matters is talking over me and you.




Now that you know all there is,

Do you see the reality?

I can look over at you and watch you just for a while.




I can see you and I see me, the sun is coming up and your still here.

We can be together, you and me.







We don’t care what they say and we don’t care what they think

Does it really matter? The only thing that matters is talking over me and you.


© 2007 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

Where did I go Wrong?

Where did I go wrong?
The nights, the days, they all roll together as one.
You were there; I was lost in your eyes, your touch.

Now you’re gone.
Where did I go wrong?

I fell, I fell hard.
I loved, loved like I haven’t loved in along time.
You cared; you were there, my best friend, my lover.

Now you’re gone,
Where did I go wrong?

All the tears cried, all the days they just pass by.
In everything I see, and everything I do, I see you.
Somehow I thought you would be there, by my side.

No longer, not now, you’re gone.
Where did I go wrong?

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Moonlight Dancing

Dancing in the moonlight
Under a star filled night,

With you

Baby, feel my touch,
Grab my hand, pull me close

to
you.

Dancing in the moonlight,
Gazing at the stars tonight

These summer dreams make me feel right,
Feeling the breeze caresses my shoulders, sending shivers down my body,
Feeling the midnight dew from the grass on my feet,

Smiling at you.

Dancing in the moonlight,
In my white dress with you,
It all seems so right.
Shadows from the moon,
Kisses from the stars,

Summer dreams,
moonlight dances,
star filled nights

Dreaming of you.

Dancing in the moonlight.

© 2007 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Baby Steps

Let me begin this post by saying my life is so different from what is was a year ago. I have a new job and am back in school. Last year my new year’s resolutions were just that, so it is a big accomplishment that I have met those two goals in my life. I had a few people who really helped me get to where I am now, and I thank them dearly. Unfortunately one of them is no longer in my life and it saddens me because that person was a large factor in encouraging me to be a better person and always supporting me to achieve better things for myself in life. It is what it is and I can only be grateful for what they have done for me, even though they are gone.

Last night I started my second class with a new professor, and I received the biggest complement that really made me think about my life. He told me that I had charisma and that in ten years someone was going to ask me how I got to where I will am. Now if you know me, you know that one of my biggest challenges is communication, when I told my professor that he laughed, so did the rest of my class. You see one of my goals is to be a better speaker and communicator. I need to conquer my fear of rejection and just say and do what needs to be said and done. So what if it's not what the other person feels or agrees with. Again I reflect back to a year ago, and there is no way in hell that I would have got up in front of a class and actually talked, I was a mute, no literally I was, it took me a long time to open up. All of my communication was done through my writing.

Baby steps, it takes baby steps, and one of the things I have learned is I can't change on demand, I need to address my personal issues before I can move on to the next. I feel that I have come a long way. I have dealt with a lot of my past and have come to realize that not everyone is out to hurt me, and that certain people grace our lives, may it be for just a short while they are there for a purpose. That purpose can be for anything but they come for a reason. They are a part of your life.

When my professor told me this last night I was in shock, I realized that as a person I have grown and become a little of who I used to be. People used to say how much fun I was to be around and that my energy was addictive, a part of that is slowly coming back. I admit it took a few years and a lot of work, a lot of encouragement and a push in the right direction, some might say a wake up call. For the first time in a long time I felt good about myself, well that is not entirely true, I have been feeling better about myself a lot more lately and now I understand that I can't protect my heart, I have to take one day at a time and live to be who I want to be.

A quote that stuck out to me last night was "Failure is the tuition you pay for success" by Walter Brunell. This fits me so well it is scary. There are so many things that I have failed at, yet there are many things that I have and am exceeding at. If it was not for who I was then, I am unable to become who I am today. My life is no where near perfect and I still have a few obstacles to overcome, but who doesn't? I have worked hard to be where I am today, and I know I am a strong person.

Sometimes I think of the heart ache and pain I feel at times and then I remember the pain I felt a long time ago and it in no way compares to what once was back then. I got through that in one piece and I can get through whatever life throws at me now. It's not easy, but whoever said life was easy. You take one day at a time, Baby steps.

Going back to school was a challenge for me, however pursing my degree in Human Development was the best decision I could have made for myself. Not only am I learning about myself I am also learning about others and what is important in life to succeed, the challenge; Making it happen and applying it to your life. ONLY YOU can do that. Others will be there to help you along the way, but it has to be you who implements those factors into your everyday life.

Learning what is best for you it's hard, it hurts, and it challenges you in ways you can't even imagine, but in the end it will only benefit you. At this time I am learning to communicate better with my classmates, my colleagues at work, my friends and family. I am proud, I am stepping outside of the box, putting myself out there, yes it uncomfortable, yes it's hard, but each day it becomes a little easier. I now realize that my opinion's are valued, and what I have to say makes people laugh, makes people think and most of all it makes them see me as more than just a person who is shy and uncommunicative. A person will decide if they like you in the first five minutes of meeting you, it's up to you to make that effort, that first impression.

All in all life has turned, it turned a lot, and in the right direction. Again I thank the few people who helped me get there and you know who you are, Without your support and encouragement I might still be stuck in a rut. Thank you to the ones that still support me and are there for me, even at 2 in the morning or whenever I am freaking out about school and life I love you with all my heart.

Sorry for the long post, if you have read this far, you ROCK!

Remember Baby Steps, it's all about baby steps, one day at a time. That's all I can do for now :)

xoxo