To Remember

To remember is like bringing back the pain,
To think is like living it all over again,
To breath is the gulp of blood that pools in your mouth,
To hurt is the only way to live, to survive.
To cause pain on yourself is the only way to cope,
Then it becomes addictive and you can't stop.

Remember the days of long ago, when all was well and life was simple.
Remember the laughter of all that was, all that is.... the innocence.

To drink away the pain that lays in your heart,
To cut away the anger that rages inside.

Do you remember?

When No One Was There

When no one was there, I went away and I never came back quite the same.
When no one was looking it was all I could do to keep from hurting myself, but you weren't there, you didn't even care.
When I was alone all I could do is cry, for nothing is the same, or ever will be again.
You kept on moving and left me alone, and I was alone, left in my own remorse too embarrassed and ashamed to even try.
When I picked myself up and finally was ready to face life again, you came back and kicked me right down again. Then I was there, by myself and crying.
How can I face my pain if you are always looking over my shoulder? You're not there, no one is there. You disappear when I need you most.
I am left alone, ready to cry, to breakdown to loose my own sense of self.
When no one was there, I left again, and this time there may not be a next time.
No one is there and I no longer care.

The Shack

I am not sure how a lot of you feel about religion. I myself am a believer and have been for quite some time, but I won't go into my story. I will however tell you about the book I just read "The Shack". It was one of the most emotional, eye opening books I have ever read and it confirmed my faith even more. If you are going to read a book read this book, even if you are not a believer. It gives a perspective on religion that I myself have never experienced. The theme in the book is pretty complex, although you don't have to know the bible or God to relate to it, You just have to be human. The Shack dives into a lot of questions I have in life, and I am sure a lot of you have as well. It gives a spin on how things should be (this is not religiously speaking). I don't want to give away the book, I think you should read it right now, it took me only 5 hours! But to give you an understanding it's about a family who's daughter is abducted by a serial killer. The father deals with issues in relation to God and good vs evil and such. Then the book focuses on God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, it goes into a whole new prescriptive of what God thinks and feels about human kind.
I know this may not appeal to some of you, but if you do decide to read the book I guarantee you will not be disappointed. It is about religion, but in a way that is not common knowledge. So that's why I say even if you are a non believer this is a good book. It defiantly changed the way I look at things. You can go to http://www.theshackbook.com to find out a little bit more and then decide if you want to read it. I highly recommend it. And for those of you that know me well know I am a total book worm, and would never tell you to read a book I didn't think was worthy, let alone blog about it. In fact this is the first book I have blogged about, so it must be worthy. READ IT!
Again find it at http://www.theshackbook.com
xoxo