Monday, October 27, 2008

Every Body's Got Their Something

Love
Compassion
Hate
Rage
Envy
Jealousy
Cheater
Friend
Enemy
Lover
Regret
Forgiveness
Drama
Truth
Willpower

Every body's got their something

Ribbons

The ribbons wrap my body,
so tight,
The mask I wear
It hides my fate.
I look to sky and wonder,
should I let the ribbons run free?
Should I release the mask that holds my destiny?
Red, blue, gold and white
They flow so freely
like a bird with might.
The mask I wear is tight on my face,
It covers my self and my fate.
Dare to let loose, dare to try,
The feelings of loss is to much to bear.
For now I let the ribbons slowly run free,
But they stay tight on me,
The mask will someday come off,
I will be as I was meant to be.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Dream a Little Dream of Me

The dreamer,
The believer,
The ultimate reliever,

Dream a little dream of me.

The life,
The savior,
Dream the impossible,
Live for the moment,
Unleash the anger

Dream a little dream for me

Live for the moment
Learn from the past,
Dream for the future
Ask for the impossible
Live for the goal,

Dream a little dream of me

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Conspirator

The pill popper,
The beer drinker,
The wine cracker,
the vodka slammer,

The common denominator
The binge eliminator

The high, the drunk
enough is enough
is it ever enough?

The crying child,
The adult conspirator
living a lie,
Believing the truth.

The pill you pop makes it all go away,
The beer you slam, passes you out
The wine you crack, it's all in your head.
The vodka goes down easy, too easy

The original addict
The act is surreal
wasting away
far away.

To far gone to come back

Monday, October 20, 2008

Let the Days Go by

It should have been you
You let the days go by
You let my tears run dry
It must be a dream,
It must be real
I can feel the pain
You are here
You are gone
You let the days go by
I could have changed
But, could I have changed for you?
I am never alone
I am alone all the time
I live by the day
You live by the dream
Is this reality
Is it a dream?
Do you lie
I tell the truth
You had a beautiful tastes
You have a wicked way
You let the days go by
I felt the truth
I felt the reality
In you.
I needed you more
You needed me
I can see you for what you are
The days are far and few between
It is not my time to wonder why.

The Way it is

The mountains touch the sky,
The rain falls upon her face,
Seeing but never believing
Dyeing but never living
A shell that is all she is
Living a life that was not meant to be
Walking a line that stretches to the limit
How much longer can she go on
How much longer can she face the pain

She watches the stars, the cloud cover
The majestic of the mountain top
She watches the mountain reach to the sky,
She lets the raindrops fall on her face
To wash away the tears.

To live in silence
To live alone
For her the mountain will never touch the sky
For her time will come to die.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I Remember

I remember the promises you made
The priority you made me
I remember The gentle kisses
The love that we once shared
I remember all the times we spent together
The good and the bad
I remember the calls I received from you
promising to never go away.
Then you told me you can't wait
and you told me the chemistry wasn't there
It wasn't there for me either that one faithful night
It doesn't make it hurt it any less.
You pushed me to be the best I could be
You were my rock, my dependably
Then you left, you were gone.
Well guess what?
FUCK YOU!
Fuck you for the promises you made,
Fuck you for the love that you gave
The promises you can't keep.
Now all I have is the memories
I try to think of the bad
so much easier than the good
It makes me miss you less
and it makes the pain go away.
The pills they only help so much
The memory of you is enough to turn my heart upside down.
Then only words I have for you is the words o FUCK YOU!
You moved away, you said you cared
Not so long ago you missed my touch,
Now the choice is yours and one day I hope you live to reget it.
I was willing to wait, I was willing to be there,
That is where we didn't see eye to eye
I am moving on, I am going to pick myself up,
and one day, just one day I will be me
I will let the pain subside, I will let it go free
Somehow it gets easier everyday.
The call will come when I am ready tp accept the pain I feel deep in my heart.
Just remember, because I remember
The day of yesterday are gone.
There is no tomorrow
there is no next time,
For right now all I can say is FUCK YOU!
No apologies, no excuses,no regrets,
You shaped me to be the person I am today.
For that I will always be grateful,
But the advantage you took of me
is to much to bear,
a project that is all I was,
never did you see as one that was forever.
Fuck you for your lies,
Fuck you for your privileged life,
and Fuck you for not being there
Anymore.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

It doesn't matter anymore

The pain, the gain
The hurt the game,
All in one, it's all the same.
You give your life to someone
They take it away.
Nothing seems better than the thought of pain.
They say good by, you move on,
You live your life as if nothing is wrong.
your heart aches, one day it will ache no more.
You thought you were over it,
You thought you thought wrong.
You will move on, you will gain the respect
You deserve the respect,
nothing will hold you back.
The moon shines bright, the stars, shine in your face.
please give me the strength I need tonight.
love tomorrow, live today, it doesen't take the pain away.
Sleep my daring, let it all go,
Let the pain subside today.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Wish Upon A Falling Star

Star light, star bright, I don't see a star tonight
The moon is shining the clouds they cover
The stars that shine so bright
Wish upon a falling star
Wish so hard, you might just win.
Star light, star bright, wish upon this wish I wish tonight
There will be no wishes, there will be no promises,
the stars are not out tonight.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

The Rain

I listen as it drops on my window so soothing, so calm.
I feel the intensity of the drops that fall,
I feel he warmth of the soothing calmness,
My window open, my blankets on
The comfort it it beings to my heart,
The fall has come, the fall is here
My memories of the past,
A distant memory of what once was.
There is no turning back, because thats what it is a memory.
The fog that rolls in, and I think of the times that once were.
Oh the rain, it comforts me to know end.
The pain that I feel the pain that endures my heart
The rain
The rain.
Falling out of the sky.
The coldness that evades my heart, the once upon on a time.
The rain,
The rain.
We feel the drops ever so softly upon our faces and look to heavens of god
The beauty, mixed with an emotion so deep.
The life we are to live
The life we are living.
The soothing of the rain
So deep so reflective
The rain,
The rain.

Who Knew

Sometimes you have a song that touches you and you can't get it out of your head, It says all there is to say about what you are going through right now. I just had someone that I thought I was in love with move away, and we promised we would keep in touch, talk and see each other as much as we could. But that time turned into days, then into weeks and now into months. It has taken me a while to get to a point to where I could be ok with it, and I know that if I see him the feelings will all come flooding back to me and it will take me that much longer to get over him. So for my own sanity I will never see him again... Completely my choice, not his. You never know what you truly had until it's gone. So I am posting this song by Pink, Who Knew because it totally says my feelings right now.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Just remember to count your blessings because once it's gone it's gone. People move on and eventually I'll get over it. It's just easier to cut the cord......

XOXO