So I Say

Looking back on all the time
Looking back at me and you,
and all that we have gone through.
You want something I do not have the heart to give
You want something that compromises myself.

I messed up and broke you down,
You hurt me too; you left when I needed you the most
So I say my emotions are out for grabs,
So you say we need some time.

What about the times you hurt me?
What about the times I forgave you?
I lose control one night and suddenly you cannot handle it?

I never cheated on you; I never broke your heart,
Your heart is made of stone,
I commend the person who can finally get through to you.

So I say this is not going to work,
You tell me I cannot let go of pasts,
Yet you hold me to one night of pure emotional breakdown.

You tell me I am not the person I once was,
You tell me I don’t appreciate you or the things you do.

Is that what’s it’s all about?
Matching dollar for dollar
when you know I don’t have the money?

When you say you care,
Do you really mean it or is it just something to say.
Once you cared, once you loved me.

It got to hard, the emotions ran dry,
The tears no longer watered my eyes.

So I say FUCK YOU!
For all that you do,
For the grudges you hold,
The way you make me feel
Worthless.

FUCK YOU
Our foundation broke long ago,
The cracks breaking into pieces.

So I say, I am done.
No more tears,
No more pain,
No more trying for you.

So I say.

© 2008 The Random Writings Of Me... Kates