I Remember

I remember the promises you made
The priority you made me
I remember The gentle kisses
The love that we once shared
I remember all the times we spent together
The good and the bad
I remember the calls I received from you
promising to never go away.
Then you told me you can't wait
and you told me the chemistry wasn't there
It wasn't there for me either that one faithful night
It doesn't make it hurt it any less.
You pushed me to be the best I could be
You were my rock, my dependably
Then you left, you were gone.
Well guess what?
FUCK YOU!
Fuck you for the promises you made,
Fuck you for the love that you gave
The promises you can't keep.
Now all I have is the memories
I try to think of the bad
so much easier than the good
It makes me miss you less
and it makes the pain go away.
The pills they only help so much
The memory of you is enough to turn my heart upside down.
Then only words I have for you is the words o FUCK YOU!
You moved away, you said you cared
Not so long ago you missed my touch,
Now the choice is yours and one day I hope you live to reget it.
I was willing to wait, I was willing to be there,
That is where we didn't see eye to eye
I am moving on, I am going to pick myself up,
and one day, just one day I will be me
I will let the pain subside, I will let it go free
Somehow it gets easier everyday.
The call will come when I am ready tp accept the pain I feel deep in my heart.
Just remember, because I remember
The day of yesterday are gone.
There is no tomorrow
there is no next time,
For right now all I can say is FUCK YOU!
No apologies, no excuses,no regrets,
You shaped me to be the person I am today.
For that I will always be grateful,
But the advantage you took of me
is to much to bear,
a project that is all I was,
never did you see as one that was forever.
Fuck you for your lies,
Fuck you for your privileged life,
and Fuck you for not being there
Anymore.

It doesn't matter anymore

The pain, the gain
The hurt the game,
All in one, it's all the same.
You give your life to someone
They take it away.
Nothing seems better than the thought of pain.
They say good by, you move on,
You live your life as if nothing is wrong.
your heart aches, one day it will ache no more.
You thought you were over it,
You thought you thought wrong.
You will move on, you will gain the respect
You deserve the respect,
nothing will hold you back.
The moon shines bright, the stars, shine in your face.
please give me the strength I need tonight.
love tomorrow, live today, it doesen't take the pain away.
Sleep my daring, let it all go,
Let the pain subside today.

Wish Upon A Falling Star

Star light, star bright, I don't see a star tonight
The moon is shining the clouds they cover
The stars that shine so bright
Wish upon a falling star
Wish so hard, you might just win.
Star light, star bright, wish upon this wish I wish tonight
There will be no wishes, there will be no promises,
the stars are not out tonight.

The Rain

I listen as it drops on my window so soothing, so calm.
I feel the intensity of the drops that fall,
I feel he warmth of the soothing calmness,
My window open, my blankets on
The comfort it it beings to my heart,
The fall has come, the fall is here
My memories of the past,
A distant memory of what once was.
There is no turning back, because thats what it is a memory.
The fog that rolls in, and I think of the times that once were.
Oh the rain, it comforts me to know end.
The pain that I feel the pain that endures my heart
The rain
The rain.
Falling out of the sky.
The coldness that evades my heart, the once upon on a time.
The rain,
The rain.
We feel the drops ever so softly upon our faces and look to heavens of god
The beauty, mixed with an emotion so deep.
The life we are to live
The life we are living.
The soothing of the rain
So deep so reflective
The rain,
The rain.

Who Knew

Sometimes you have a song that touches you and you can't get it out of your head, It says all there is to say about what you are going through right now. I just had someone that I thought I was in love with move away, and we promised we would keep in touch, talk and see each other as much as we could. But that time turned into days, then into weeks and now into months. It has taken me a while to get to a point to where I could be ok with it, and I know that if I see him the feelings will all come flooding back to me and it will take me that much longer to get over him. So for my own sanity I will never see him again... Completely my choice, not his. You never know what you truly had until it's gone. So I am posting this song by Pink, Who Knew because it totally says my feelings right now.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Just remember to count your blessings because once it's gone it's gone. People move on and eventually I'll get over it. It's just easier to cut the cord......

XOXO

One Day

One day it will all come together,
One day I will live as one, as whole
As tomorrow comes and tomorrow brings in promises
As I live today I will find my moment, my moment in time
One day, song will come to me, the music will play
Someday when the world is cold you be be thinking of me,
Someday when I look upon a star, I will see you, standing above me
One day, someday life will be as it should, in another world, in another day
You'll be thinking of me and the world will be as it should.

xoxo

Simply

Simply, maybe things are impossible, ever so untouchable,
Simply, maybe one day you will hear me sing that impossible song.
One day the world will look upon you and say you'll meet someone better.
Simply,
Maybe,
I stumbled upon you most accidentally
and fell a million miles
down into that impossible road.
Simply
Maybe
You'll look around that corner and see something better
And then you'll think whatever.
Maybe
then you'll forget that stupid song.
that you once sang.......
Simply,
Maybe
it will be a distant memory and you'll get on....
you're friends will say whatever, you can do so much better
and you'll get on.
Simply
Maybe