Thoughts on Life

You only have one chance at life, one chance to be happy, and one chance to make the most of your world. Nothing ever comes to those who lie around and wait for their calling, things happen to those of us who go out and find our calling. For many of us life is not handed to us on a sliver platter, but something we have to work and strive for. For those of us that have the easy route, there are no experiences and no sense of self satisfaction to be gained.

In my opinion there are two ways we can go through life, one, living to the height of our experiences, never taking anything for granted, and always pushing for that next adventure. The second way of life - pretending to be happy, but making everyone around you miserable, pretending to have that perfect life, never admitting failure and always faulting everyone else. Living of life of denial is not a way of life.

There are many of us that have been dealt a bad hand of cards, but how do we play those in everyday life? My friend, it is not easy. We have to take what god gave us and learn to play the hand that was dealt. True happiness will come within as you grow and learn. You will learn to be comfortable in yourself, as long as you look at yourself, and see that beauty that lies within.

Too many of us see an outside, a person for their status in life, but not for the person inside. I have learned that status and money doesn't always mean happiness and comfort. This is something that we should never base ourselves as a whole on. There are so many experiences in life that come through adventure, hurt, pain, love and laughter.

Learn to appreciate the simple things in life, the beautiful things, and the things that take your breath away. See the world for what it is, the good and the bad. Live each day as if it may be your last, and never take the one’s around you for granted. Never take life for granted.

There is no guarantee that things will be easy, or that the road you chose will always lead you in the right direction. Always remember that we can take those bad times and reflect back to learn and grow, even the bad times we should never take for granted. For those may be the times that make us a stronger and more willful person. It will make us wise, wise to ourselves and to give the knowledge of experience to others.

Never pretend to be someone you are not, that will only make you lose sight of yourself, and you will be denying yourself the true beauty of life, for you will never know what its like to live in your own shoes.

We are on this planet for such a short time and the one chance we have to live should be lived to the fullest.

The Tightrope

You look below and see nothing, so far down…. The rope beneath you shakes ever so slightly, and you know one step in the wrong direction will send you plummeting into the earth below. Some days you are able to walk this line with ease and confidence, others you can barley make it off the platform.

Nothing is ever certain, and each day gives you a new perspective into your life. It is still unclear why walking this thin line can be so easy, yet so difficult all in one. Many people walk with ease with their head held high, but you, you are not capable of this.

You ponder so many fear’s, and thoughts that race through you everyday, some days it’s all of your energy to get to the end, and then you awaken only to try again. Some days you run to the end, excited and hopeful of tomorrow, and you can’t wait to move to the next place. But where does it all begin?

Taking a journey through life is never easy, and the bumps you hit along the way make that journey a learning experience. It’s up to you to figure out how you are going to apply those experiences to real life. Your journey may be a long one, others are not so fortunate to take the long road. Some may chose the road to hell, while others will find their path to heaven. It’s up to you to take each day as it comes, and never forget the little things in life that helped you get there.

Nothing is ever set in stone, and no one said your journey will be easy, You will come along new obstacles every day that will challenge your inner self and make you wonder if you can go on. You will meet new people, some of them will try to steer you into a path that you may not want to explore, it’s up to you to be strong and see the trouble that may lie ahead. It’s up to you to believe in yourself, know that it will be you alone that see’s you to the end, others will stop by and assist you, but you will have to fight to make that journey home.

In the end you will no longer fight to make that walk, because you will know what you are capable of, you will trust yourself to relax and walk with ease, you your self will hold your head up high, you will no longer be afraid to walk that tightrope.

One Moment

Nothing is worth more than that one moment, that one moment that can take your breath away with one look, one touch, one kiss....
Words will never begin to express that profound moment in time, when your heart races, and you feel that excitement of that one touch, that touch you want to feel forever, that touch you so innocently forgot that made you tremble all over.
Suddenly you remember what home is, you feel what is right, your whole body sinks into a different kind of comfort, the comfort of the person next to you. You close your eyes, you take a deep breath and when you open your eyes you look into the beautiful existence of that person above you and you know that nothing else matters in this moment.....
The feelings that are running through you right now are almost to much, the weakness you feel deep inside, the way your whole body melts into that person, the electricity thats running through both your body's and then the pure ecstasy of it all......
You never imagined that the touch of that one person could bring so many feelings, feelings of comfort, and a realization that many people will never experience a moment such as this. This private moment when the only person you want to share this with is the person lying next to you, holding you, and somehow bringing an ease to your whole self being.....
Once again you close your eyes as you lay your head on his chest and just for one minute you forget what it feels like to feel anything different than what you are feeling now, now in this one moment......

The Awakening

A time comes in your life when you finally get it...when, in the midst
of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.

Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.

You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear
over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you...and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself.. and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn't always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself...and in
the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise. You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and you learn not to always take it personally. You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.

This was sent to me , the author is unknown , I have to say it makes you really think about life, and recently this makes more sense to me more than it ever did before. I just wanted to share!

Hug O' War

I will not play at tug o' war
I'd rather play at hug o' war
Where everyone hugs
Instead of tugs
Where everyone giggles
And rolls on the rug,
Where everyone kisses,
And everyone grins,
And everyone cuddles,
And everyone wins.


This is one of my favorite poems by Shel Silverstein. I came across this poem when I was in first grade and enjoy reading it from time to time. Just wanted to share!

Life or Something Like It.....

This seems to me, an odd phrase. I continuously wonder about my direction and my place. Throughout the years I have grown into myself, but yet I know there is so much more of myself that I have yet to discover. Recently I have posted a blog on the Epiphany that I have recently had. The new beginning in my life. As recent as this may seem, my Epiphany is shaping a reality. I'm still not sure if this was a long time coming or why it hit me so fast. Suddenly it all seems so clear.
I am learning that life is not always the road that I may have planned, and I may not be where I would have pictured myself at this moment, but I have realized that now is the time to move forward with my dreams. I am learning that my experiences in my life have not made me the weak person I once saw myself as, but a much stronger and more knowledgeable person. I am becoming proud of myself, of finding myself and learning each day.
Struggle and heartache are familiar terms in my life, and for so long I looked at this as my weakness, but no longer. Looking at myself, or your own self is very hard, and many people don't want to face the reality of their true self's, I didn't for a long time. But I have to ask myself, how will I ever overcome those weaknesses that invade my soul if I don't face them everyday? How will I learn to be happy if I don't see myself for who I really am? These I believe are very important questions that I feel should be examined, especially if you are in my position, questioning the meaning of life.
Right now I am struggling to move forward. I have made a major decision in my life, a decision that will take me to a new place, but a decision that will better my future. So my quest continues, on to a new beginning, and a new dream. For once it is the dream that I have always wanted, but have been to scared to share. For the first time in my life I am going to fulfill my dreams and not the dreams of others.

The Harvest Moon

Looking up at the moon, there was no indication of the pain that would change the life of a girl forever. As she sat at the top of a hill looking out at the city, thinking why did I leave my home? This girl is only 12 years old, thinking she knows everything, at the same time not knowing anything.
A story is told that very night, as the red moon rises over the city. The legend was watching a moon of that color raise, someone you are very close to, or you, yourself will come close to death. Neither one knew the irony of that legend, for by the end of that one might not live to see the next day.
The girl has no where to go, she certainly could not return home, for the trouble she was in was far to much to bare to the parents who loved her. Why was she such a disappointment to her family? Why couldn't she be a "normal" 12 year old. Why had drugs started to invade her life at such an early age, she was unable to understand the consequences of her actions.
Later that evening as these very thoughts invaded her mind, she thought to herself, why not end it all. A bottle of vodka sounded very nice, why not wash it down with a bottle of aspirin? The last thing she remembers is a song "do you have the time to listen to me whine, about nothing and everything all at once", her head is hit hard against a wall. Then all goes black.
The light is shining, it appears at the end of a tunnel, no, wait there are voices, unable to open her eyes, there is a taste in her mouth that she can not understand. There are people standing over her, one of them is crying, she recognizes her father. The girl was unsure of where she was or what was happening, she surely must be dreaming.
As she comes to, it appears she is in a hospital, she can now make out the voices of the people around her. Still she is unsure of why she is here. A doctor comes in and asks "do you know that you almost died? You were not breathing when you came in? We had to pump your stomach" At this point the girl becomes angry, angry at the fact that she did not succeed. Still there was more.... The girl was asked if she had sex, the answer was no. The doctor then told her this was not the case. At this point the girl was unsure of how to re-act. Had she been violated, and not even known? Yes she was sore and as she sobered, the reality of her broken body had set in. She was no longer the same person.
At this tender age of 12 her innocence was taken. Not only to the fault of the man who violated her in every way, but also by the attempted suicide that almost took this girls life. Nothing was ever the same, the girl grew up and never dealt with her guilt. She always wondered, did she say yes, because she was drinking did I deserved to be raped? The answer to this, the girl would not figure out for a long time. The nightmares continued throughout her life, she could never quite get over the pain she caused her family, and the damage she had done to herself. The man who did this was never prosecuted, which added to her fear.
The Harvest moon that she watched rise above the city that night, almost claimed her life. Had she not watched the moon, would her flirtation with death come to play as it did? When she hears the song or sees a harvest moon, she will always remember the night that almost took her precious life from her.